Feelings of spring

Spring used to lighten up my days. The warming rays of sun against my pure white skin, I'd feel the happiness after the endless days of winter, but not this year. Instead.. Winter was my months of happiness and all I've left now is the sad remains of the thoughts and feelings I used to have. The memory is still stored in my mind, too far to erase.

I'll have to live with the knowledge of what was once. 

Knowingly that I can never get it back, nothing can go back to the way it was, it is not a possibility. I could go back to think like that, the people around me could behave as they did. But that wont be enough. The circumstances will never be the same. I only had that oppertunity for three months, after that, nothing could ever go back. Sadly, people decided to make it worse. 

   I'll be looking forward to next spring, I'll hope that one day I can open my heart again and look back at the time with a smile on my lips.. 

Knowing that I'm enjoying what I have, and enjoyed what I had.